old v new

own v know
win v play
plan v do
save v spend
wait v go
subtle v honest
fear v live
love v respect
happy v bliss
protect v enjoy
see v create

application for closure

little

so many times i've fallen, and called a name
i believed in once, only to find nothing
(just like before, probably)
i've always put all of my eggs
into flimsy baskets
thinking that the dreams i weave around them
will be strong enough to hold the dozens
of realities i've held onto through the years
and here i am
a little born, a little died
in spite of and because of it all

dear self,

go back to bed.

seriously, what are you doing here?

when i woke up

you were the first thing i thought of,
and how you weren't there

i was ok with it

there are going to be a lot of mornings like this
in the near future

today, i

set up a meeting for getting scooter parking

set up mail forwarding

paid off the $10 my doctor forgot to charge me last time i went

researched internet options, both cafe and in-house, as well as thai options

sent my (borrowed) grandcentral phone number to my apartment manager to set me up on the gate system

changed my billing address and the address in my work system

ordered new dishes and silverware

got new towels and showermat...and suspension rod...

feeling pretty accomplished!

if

if we're not careful
the impressions we made
will leave us alone
will just slowly fade
and if this is love
it would truly be tragic
for such a feeling
to just pass away